I Don’t Care, I’m In the “Zone”

I think I officially hit the peak of summer, where my sleep schedule is not fixable. In other words, it’s all jacked up!

Recap of this weekend!

Friday – June 8, 2018

It was slow, I’m not even going to lie. My mom had a doctors appointment, and she was not home the entire morning. Which means only one thing, I can finally eat the Cocoa Pebbles on top of our white kitchen cabinet. MAX! No, “tampoco” max! But ya know, it’s Friday. TREAT YA SELF! But I think I treated myself a little too much. I FEEL GUILTY! DON’T JUDGE ME!

See the thing is, my sister and I went to the Dollar Tree where I bought the rest of my friend’s birthday present (candy, balloon, and a birthday card). But first we stopped by the Michoacana, which is a Mexican snack place. So we got “cheetos con queso” and a “yogurt con fruta y granola.” But you know me being healthy got the yogurt and my sister got the cheetos.


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Let’s just pretend…that’s its supposed to be sideways


Since it was my friend’s birthday party, I told her that we should eat out. That was a mistake. We ended up eating pasta at Olive Garden. Only to jump at sky zone right afterwards. I thought throughout the whole time, I was going to puke my guts out. Sorry, TMI! Then afterwards I got a shake from Steak and Shake…I really don’t know how to diet…

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Saturday and Sunday – June 9 and 10, 2018

On Saturday, I declared it Family time. Let’s bond while we devour our food.

On Sunday it was just a little bit me time. Time to call it just a relaxing time for moi. I watched two movies on Netflix. The first one was so horrible that I don’t even want to mention it. Second movie, Cocktail stars Tom Cruise.

A little snippet…

Who doesn’t want to watch a movie with the young gorgeous Tom Cruise?!

But to be a little more recent, y’all should watch Ocean’s Eight and there scheme to steal at the MET Gala. I’ll leave the trailer below!




Garibaldi Ready

Guys, I’m officially twenty! Let that sink in…ya girl needs only one more year to be legally ready to drink. I had a whole birthday weekend, where the most important people had given their beautiful birthday wishes (THANKS!).

FRIDAY – May 25

Low-key not the best birthday. I was cleaning the whole day because my mom was hosting the birthday party at our house. But by five my sister took me out to a restaurant in Naperville called Joy Yee.

The server sat us down in a small corner. I couldn’t help to blame the server for dragging, but maybe they were just that packed with people. Anyway after a while, the server got our order. We ended up getting: Korean Spicy Fried Vege Dumplings (appetizers), Won ton Chicken Noodle Soup (me), and my sister got the Korean Special Combination Noodles. It was delicious, especially the appetizers. In the end we both got our drinks to go. My sister got the pineapple coconut freeze with tapioca, and I got the caramel milk tea with tapioca. Mine was a little too sweet, but my sister’s smoothie tasted like piña colada, which is always a good thing.

Saturday – May 26

More errands. I took my grandma to the doctor first thing in the morning. She had to get some x-rays to her lungs, and I have never felt like such a failure. I am a horrible at translating and talking, and I’m just a hot mess times two. Anyway, after the doctor, I took her out for some breakfast at McDonald’s cause I’m too poor for anything else. The good thing is that she actually likes McDonald’s breakfast.

When I got home, I just relaxed for a little bit before the mess of people started coming. The time started passing by while I did the little things, and before I knew it I was ready. But guess what, I got another errand. This time I had to get Popeye’s chicken. I took out my cousin’s for the little spin, and we stopped by Starbuck’s. After that it was just a family party vibe. People come, you say hi, you eat, you sit and chat, you get cake, and people leave.

Sunday – May 27

It was a lazy family Sunday. Towards the end, I took my cousin to buy an outfit for her pinning ceremony (she’s graduating eight grade this year). We went to Target, Ross, and Meijer. I always enjoy my time with her, and I have a feeling I always will.

Monday – May 28

I like pop music, so all that basic “it’s always on the radio” type of music. Sometimes I’ll go out of my way by listening to some R&B, slow rock, indie, or some Latino music. But damn, this day I went full blown Mexican.

Garibaldi is a music festival like Lollapalooza. In the past, it was more of the Hispanic pop music, but lately these last few years it is more banda and all of that jazz.

But that being said, I still didn’t know what to expect. So I was kind of surprised by how many people were there. That people actually danced and took out people to dance. I wish I would have liked the music more, because maybe I would have enjoyed it so much more. Since I don’t know the music, I don’t know how to dance, throughout the whole time I was just like “uhhhh what do I do now?”

But I did dance a couple, and my friends were being goofy and the guys that we went with were cool. They all teased me because I’m a stick dancing…in other words really stiff.

Maybe I’ll get better with time, and I’ll enjoy myself more and hopefully I like the music more, and only then I would go.

Mama, Te Amo…Hoy y Siempre

One whole week to celebrate our mothers, and one whole week of summer vacation. It’s been good! I’m not even going to lie, but I’m craving an outing, a trip, or just something spontaneous. Will I ever get it? Probably not until next week…

Just a little pic, because I liked how my make-up looked. Kudos to Abigail! 

Before I go on a tangent, mother’s day weekend was relaxing. My momma got to have three days just for her. She had May 10, which is the day that Mexicans celebrate mother’s day. AND she had this whole weekend, because my family is just extra.

But in all honesty…I wish her the best mother’s day ever!!!!


No matter how much we don’t see eye to eye, I will always have so much respect and love for you! You taught me everything a woman should know, and I know the lessons haven’t stopped. Even though you may not teach me in the best way, or the “right way,” I know that everything you do is for the better of my life. I hope that one day God will give me the chance to be a mom, and that I could be as good as a mom as you are. I love you with all my heart momma! Feliz Dia De Las Madres!!!

Better late than never.

Sophomore Year!!!

“It doesn’t surprise me when people in the public fall into drugs, addiction, alcohol, depression and suicide. If I didn’t have my faith and I didn’t have my community, I’d be right there with them” (Arden Cho).

As I said in my last blog post if it weren’t for the people in my life, I would have also join these people. No, I’m not saying it to be funny. Arden Cho, I wish you the best in your career and in your life! Check her out!!!

Other than a YouTuber, she is also an actor, singer, and blogger / vlogger. Check out her blog! https://www.eastofarden.com/ 

Anyway, this is my last weekend of summer! It is such a bitter-sweet feeling. This summer has been one of the most funnest (is that a word??? ohh bilingual problems). From going to Missouri, to Mexico, and spending time with friends and family, this summer was probably one of my best summers. I’ve read three books: Unfilter: No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me by Lilly Collins, The Choice by Nicholas Sparks, and See Me by Nicholas Sparks. I also started another one…but I didn’t finish it.

This past week was actually probably the worst way to end the summer, but oh well. I really can’t complain. Friday: my aunt came over. Saturday: I have a birthday party to go to. Sunday: is still a mystery.

This Monday marks the start of my Sophomore Year of College. I need to take a deep breath and focus on getting good grades. soph

I also wanted to give an update on the Yes, You Can! diet. Well, I have lost about five pounds so…I guess that is something good! I’m planning on using my school’s gym and workout after my class… at least on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Let’s see if I can keep that promise.

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I guess…I’m ready for school!!!

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From probably one of my biggest inspirations…JK Rowling, “Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”

I don’t want your pity…I swear I don’t! But what I do want, is to let you know why I am the way I am. Does that make sense?

Y’all know that I have PCOS. According to some sites I have looked up, it says that mood swings are normal. Which can explain why some weeks I feel like a complete failure, and/or lost in this world. Or why sometimes I could feel lonely.

On my good days, I realize that I am not lonely at all. I have my parents, my sister, and my best friend. Overall, I have family. My question to myself is…Why? I don’t know why I feel so lonely…and yet I do. Is it because of PCOS? Am I being dramatic? But I’m not because I am feeling all of these emotions. I could possibly agree that it might be because of hormones which brings me back to PCOS.

One of the main reasons I have this–to my understanding–, is because of hormones and being overweight. I repeat TO MY UNDERSTANDING!!!! I am not a doctor.

Therefore, my mother always encouraged me to lose weight. I never did lose enough of weight. Although I did try, I could have tried harder. Whatever! This year, my mother suggested Alejandro Chaban’s diet– Yes, I Can!–so many years of saying “NO” to do something called dieting because I was afraid that this will classify me as fat. This year I said, “I’ll try.”

Although I broke this diet in the first week, I gave more of an effort this current week. I am hoping that if I lose weight and my period goes back to normal…that maybe I will even start feeling healthier mentally. I need to get out of this dark hell that I am in. With school coming up, I can go two ways… go deeper into this hell or actually start feeling better. Shoot, I may just stay the same, which I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. But I know I’ll be fine, because I got amazing and sometimes annoying people (because they want the best for me…Thank you, mama).

So, Yes I Can!


Hasta Luego!!!

I would say that coming back from vacation is a bitter sweet feeling.

This past week was my first week back home after three weeks in Mexico. Waiting for our arrival was even more family. It wasn’t only family that made me feel like I was at home…it was the place that I have gotten attach to…my home. This suburb…oh how I have grown to love it!

Anyway, this vacation was what the doctor had ordered. I don’t want to write every single detail because somebody had once told me that once you tell a memory it no longer is yours. I’ll tell you 10 memorable things that has happened…(not in a specific order).

1). I’m legal!

As y’all know, in the U.S. you have to be twenty-one years old in order to be legal to drink. Well in Mexico, you have to be 18. In the hotel, they welcomed us with free drinks from the bar. That pina colada was so good!

2). Puerto Vallarta’s Town

My family and I stayed in Nuevo Vallarta…to which I understand is two different states. Anyway, Nuevo Vallarta and Puerto Vallarta was like thirty minutes away. Let me tell what I sure won’t miss. I won’t miss the crazy driving over there! Since we didn’t really know our way, my family and I only went to the town like twice. Yet, even if it was only two times…I fell in love. It was a city and a beach vibe. There were so many people, but in the night it was a different world. Yet the entire time in the Vallarta’s…  I felt that I was still in the U.S…there were still a lot of American tourist.

3). Tony!

Tony is an iguana that me and my sister took a picture with. It was beautiful! I also felt bad for it. It almost felt like a rubber toy…

4). Ziplining

False advertisement! I only agreed to this because I thought we were going to hike on a mountain and throw ourselves off of it. But no! They decide to say that we have to go through an obstacle course. I never knew that I shook so much! The people behind me were so kind…and they were both pretty in shape men. Thanks! But I did it! The queen of chickening out…did it! From this I got 17 or more mosquito bites.


5). Boat Ride

Have y’all been on a boat? If you have, congrats if you could walk. This boat had breakfast and lunch. After it started moving, I didn’t think it was that bad…but then it actually started to go faster. The boat hit the waves and danced which made me tumbled and lose balance. There you see me with my cup of milk and OJ…you never seen me with such fright. To be honest, I think the boat ride was worst than the zipline activity. Other than that, this little boat ride included dinner on the beach and drinks, the blue ocean, the ziplining activity, and Tony. It was worth…the not being able to walk.

6). The Mountains

The second week  of Mexico, we spent with my father’s family. It is all good, except for the fact that we are in the middle of nowhere with no WIFI connection. How can a millennial survive a week without her phone? I don’t know how I did it. The funny thing is that in order to get connection you have to hike up the mountains to this spot…then you’ll get signal. Poof! Anyway, I slept in a room full of bees…well not full but they were some hives. The insects over there are huge…the last day I was so done. That I only had a minor freak out with an insect the size of two quarters.


7). Scorpion

The same second week, a scorpion threw us a welcome party. Yes, a scorpion! We were about to sleep when the scorpion came out of nowhere. Poor thing didn’t know that they were gonna kill it.

8). La Cena

In Mexico it is accustomed to eat at 8 or 9 at night. No, it wasn’t a simple fruit. It was a god damn meal! When we got to out third destination…Leon, Guanajuato, we ate tacos at like 10 at night. Most of the time they bought us food from vendors around the block. It was a blessing and a curse.

9). Leon

Our third and final week of Mexico, was where my momma is from. Those days in a way were kind of the last bittersweet kind of days. We missed home already, and yet I wanted to discover more. Oh well! I got to see the downtown area where I bought two cute shirts. A park like the millenium and the zoo. Yes very kiddish things, but once we brought the family to relax with us in the park, and my cousin gave us free zoo tickets. Our time here was so much fun!

Yes it’s the same church as the Vallarta one…whoops. I actually saw it in Leon.

10) Weight Loss

I have no idea how I lost weight but I did. Given, I probably gained it by now. But when I came back from Mexico, I realized I lost five pounds. I realize it was all the different food I ate…well I should go to Mexico more often! Haha!

Anyway three weeks of Mexico to see three very different places! I came back thinking that this was the fun for this month. Wrong again!

This past Friday (July 21) I got to see my ultimate favorite Korean Artist. He was amazing…but left me with many questions for my own self. Maybe I’ll write another blog about that. My favorite perfomance has to be three songs: That XX, Crooked, and Untitled. Thank you GD/JiYong!

Es Tiempo de Vals


“Keep calm and lose yourself in the music.”

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The sound of music in your ear has the most peaceful way to relax and put you to sleep. Which is one of the reasons why I love to take my iPod or phone with me on road trips. Yes, this weekend was already planned ahead of time. The plans were to go to Missouri to be with the family and celebrate my cousin’s quinceañera. Well what can I say, we did exactly that…no random adventure. No summer/weekend fling. It was just a weekend to chill with the fam.

On Thursday night, my mom told us to be ready by five o’clock in the morning. Naturally I put the alarm at 4:30 am. To my shock, no one was awake. I gave myself ten to fifteen minutes to sleep in and wake up naturally. Yet a few minutes later and my parents woke up. Everyone is awake and we’re pumped. The energy was jumping everywhere, and the coffee did not help with that. However being in the car for eight hours straight has a way to drain you. As you’re in the second hour of the road trip you hands move to your best friend… technology. Sad, but true.

The first hour or so on the way to Missouri and I’m already munchin’ on a blue-berry muffin and caramel ice coffee.

While my iPod has all my favorite songs, it also has my soul. As I’m typing this down… I’m on my way back to Chicago and in the first hour of the trip. Which is rather soon but we’ll I’m listening to Lay It Down by Lloyd.

Anyway, we got to Missouri at noon and that first day we caught up with everyone and everything. Where we enjoyed a good meal in the backyard, which was Ribs and rice. Second day, was the day of the quince. That’s just a traditional big party. We went to the church. Then to Denny’s and straight to the hotel where we took a nap and waited until it was the time to go to the party. Third day, we spent almost the whole day at my uncle’s house. We had breakfast and later had a barbecue.


While I said there were no surprising events, I sort of lied. During our weekend stay. The first day my cousin took us to Lee Summit mall and Yogurtini. Second Day was Denny’s and Mickey D’s. Third day was a price chopper. Still not very exciting but some of the things were very delicious.

Glad to have came!